We all want to 'fit in' as a human being. Either it's being liked by people or getting attention. You can say you don't, but deep down you know it's the truth. Sometimes you even do things that you don't like, just so other people can see that "you are one of them". But what good do you get when you are "one of them"? Does that make you cool? Or popular? Well, maybe for a while but believe me, you will look at yourself ten years later and think: Why did I ever do that?!I remember that I grabbed some lunch with my sister and I saw this woman eating by herself. I looked at her with admiration: WOW! That woman got guts. I wish I would have the balls to go out and enjoy lunch by myself. But my sis laughed at me and said: yeah you would be the ultimate loner. People will look at you and think you're crazy! And ofcourse I agreed with what she said. "Hah... me..having lunch by myself? That would be pathetic indeed. I would never do that!". But you know over the years I started to care less what people would think of me. I remember me having lunch by myself for the very first time a couple of months ago and IT FELT GREAT! lol. But this is me tho, I'm like an "eat-pray-love" julia roberts kinda adventurous person so this doesn't mean you have to go grab lunch on your own. Another example, I used to have two personalities. One Karine who goes to church every saturday and sunday, and another Karine for the rest of the days. I think I had an identity crisis, never knew who I really wanted to be. When I was with my friends, ofcourse I stayed close to my own opinions and principles, but STILL, I did things that weren't close to me. In church I smiled around looking like an angel but on fridaynight I would go out and say: "ughh look at that girl with that short dress. how cheap can you be". Even tho I knew that I have to love others just as I love myself and that I shouldn't judge.
We are all so afraid of what other people will think of us, that we put all our deepest desires and the TRUTH in a cave. Now some of you may think: well nah, I always do my own thing. I don't care what people say man, I like what I do. Just be honest to yourself, is it? I personally don't think that ANY of you want to end up being a negative person, an addicted person (to whatever) or to even end up as a "bad bitch". To me you ain't 'cool' when you're a hoes-and-getting-high-alldayurrday person. You are cool to me when you are close to yourself. Close to the truth. Knowing you don't need all that fakeness just so you can fit into the rest of the world. I think we all want to be able to inspire people and to be different than the rest. Don't let fear stop you! Ever. I learned to stay close to what I am, and to know my identity in Christ. Don't let people define you, and don't EVER be insecure just because you have different thoughts about something. Ofcourse, people will talk. But they always will keep doing that! There's this quote that says: "You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches". #hatersgonnahate and hey if they won't like you for who you are, who cares? There are many more people in this world who will. Never stop doing things YOU like and to follow your own heart. God created you not so that you could be "one of them" but to be you! Stand out, be different, BeYOUtiful! Love, Yin
