Keep on fighting.

I kind of had a rough week, spiritually. So many things going through my mind that made me worry, frustrated and angry. Especially when it comes to school, I've just been stressing too much. All these negative emotions made me pray less and read less because I felt guilty towards God for feeling like crap actually. When I'm having a blessed week with blessed services and people, I just feel close to Him and I feel such peace in my heart. Everything changes and all seems well. And then you return to "the real world" and you get confronted with many things and negative minded people. I felt like I was on the right way of climbing that mountain but I fell all the way down again. But yeah, that's where the real battle begins right? Jesus said himself: "I did not come to bring peace, but a sword". I tried to handle every aspect by myself, but ofcourse I will fail when I try to do it on my own. I'm thankful for having an amazingly faithful God. Even tho I'm such a mess, even tho I can be a pain in the the ass, He still loves me as much as before and He reminds me daily to not give up. I gotta take up my sword and keep on fighting. Love, Yin