You know, many times I hear people or even my own friends saying this: oh yeah, you're that 'good' girl huh? you go to church every sunday and you never do anything wrong. (I still love you all (: ) but it's WRONG! I am not the 'good' girl. I am a human with alot of weaknesses. I fail many times.Let me tell you what I saw when I looked at myself in the mirror: I saw this little insecure girl who had a lot of questions about EVERYTHING. even about God. She loved to judge other people so she could feel good about herself. Everyday she complained about how hard her life is and she blamed everyone around her for that. That made HATE and BITTERNESS come into her heart. I saw this girl screaming for love, longing for someone to tell her that she CAN do it. She was hurt, she was confused, she was lost. She felt sorry for herself all the time and never felt good enough.
You see, God taught me alot of things these last couple of years and the lesson I've learned the most about is that it's not ABOUT ME. Everything I see in that mirror doesn't match up with how God sees me. He looks at His beautiful creation and says: "I've made her, she's perfect." All my weaknesses, all my questions, all my sin and just EVERYTHING, He wants it. He died on that cross so I don't have to go through it on my own. The moment I said: "okay God, I open up myself to you. I give EVERYTHING to You." He transformed EVERYTHING. He gave me a new heart and mindset. That doesn't mean I'm perfect and I'm all good now NO, I still sin, I still fail. I'm far from perfect, but I have a perfect God! There are alooot of things that are "not okay" in my life but I realize that I can't fix that with my own strenght. I need God. He shows me day by day that His love is enough for me. Again, with this blog, I don't want to show off how I'm such a 'good girl' or how much I "know" about God. I want you to have that same experience with Him. He's full of love and it is indescribable. I could try to write about that but I don't think your internet browser would handle it ;) Just know: God loves you! You're beautifully and wonderfully made and He wants to give you EVERYTHING. Even when you think you're not worthy or you're a nobody; no sin is too big for Him. He wants to restore you. Remember: JESUS + NOTHING = EVERYTHING. Love, Yin
