“While tears are rolling down my cheek, I feel hopeless. My faith seems to fail me at this very moment.
Thoughts of darkness are appearing out of nowhere and there’s no way of escaping it. You start doubting and questioning yourself. Why can’t I let go of things I can’t change? Why do I still feel empty and lonely? Why do I feel like I’m not good enough? My heart couldn’t feel emptier than this.” - And no, this is not a made up story for depressed people. This is reality. It’s called being human. And it’s hard to be thankful all the time because it seems like it’s never enough.
Isn’t it weird that we if we gather with our loved ones we often feel like we’re on top of the world, but the moment we’re alone, this awful thing called “emptiness” shows up again. At that very moment we are getting to know ourselves. Sometimes it’s important to have some me-time because you want to discover what you’re really made of. It won’t be always pretty because we have to face our ugly selves. And with ugly I mean the deepest and darkest part of our heart. We don’t want to open that box because we’re so ashamed of it. It’s full of flaws. The world can’t possibly know about this, so that’s why we keep it to ourselves. That box full of depression, disappointments, neglection, abuse, condemnation, hatred, competitiveness, jealousy, sadness and everything negative you can thing of is constantly chasing you whenever it gets the chance to.
Now the question is, are you willing to sacrifice that piece of human being and let go of your box or are you going to let it take over your life?
Love, yin.
“While tears are rolling down my cheek, I feel hopeless. My faith seems to fail me at this very moment.
Thoughts of darkness are appearing out of nowhere and there’s no way of escaping it. You start doubting and questioning yourself. Why can’t I let go of things I can’t change? Why do I still feel empty and lonely? Why do I feel like I’m not good enough? My heart couldn’t feel emptier than this.” - And no, this is not a made up story for depressed people. This is reality. It’s called being human. And it’s hard to be thankful all the time because it seems like it’s never enough.
Isn’t it weird that we if we gather with our loved ones we often feel like we’re on top of the world, but the moment we’re alone, this awful thing called “emptiness” shows up again. At that very moment we are getting to know ourselves. Sometimes it’s important to have some me-time because you want to discover what you’re really made of. It won’t be always pretty because we have to face our ugly selves. And with ugly I mean the deepest and darkest part of our heart. We don’t want to open that box because we’re so ashamed of it. It’s full of flaws. The world can’t possibly know about this, so that’s why we keep it to ourselves. That box full of depression, disappointments, neglection, abuse, condemnation, hatred, competitiveness, jealousy, sadness and everything negative you can thing of is constantly chasing you whenever it gets the chance to.
Now the question is, are you willing to sacrifice that piece of human being and let go of your box or are you going to let it take over your life?
Love, yin.
